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The Battle Of My Two Minds

 Sleep.

Sleep.

Sleep.

I say that to myself 

More than a hundred times 

But I refuse to listen.

Calm, relax, quiet, sleep -

Wait, what was that thing 

That thing 

The thing I was supposed to do 

Before tomorrow?

Thing?

What thing?

Okay, right now, I only need 

To sleep.

So shh, quiet, and -

What's 400 multiplied by 253?

I really want to do some math now.

No, I'd rather sleep. Focus.

Close my eyes,

Calm my thoughts, 

Relaaaaxxxxx.....

If two people are reading each other's minds,

Whose mind are they actually reading?

...

That's it.

Calm. 

Switching off my mind temporarily-

It's easier doing that when I'm in class -

SHH.

Calm. 

Black, nothingness. 

Don't hear, don't smell, don't see, don't feel 

ANYTHING 

Mm, I smell mint Lindt. 

No, I smell nothing. Because I'm sleeping.

Someone's eating a mint flavoured Lindt.

But I'd rather sleep.

Just one peek...

OHHH LOOK AT THAT CAUGHT IN THE ACT!!

"Amma!!!" 

"What?!"

"You're eating Lindt in the middle of the night."

"And you're talking in your sleep. Keep quiet and go back."

"What?"

Don't open your eyes. Don't open your-

Wohhhh that was a dream??

Great, I'll be up for the rest of the night, won't I?

I forgot to do my homework.

Just sleep. Please?

What's a contour? Brown lines drawn on a -

KEEP. QUIET.

Oh. Okay. Sorry.

I'm sleeping. I'm sleeping. I'm -

Was the colour orange named orange because the fruit orange is orange in colour, or was the fruit orange named orange because it's orange in colour?

I give up.

You know, the word nun is the letter n cartwheeling. 

Let me join in - a random cat on the internet might be more successful than me.

Really?? 

Think about it.

Now?? In the middle of the night??

What else would I do in the middle of the night??

I don't know. Hey, let's sing a random song!!

Pick one, kick one - Carnatic, or Western??!!

Mm, I'm more in the mood for Western tonight.


at 7 am in the morning


... I'm up.

Shh, pretend like I'm asleep, only the mind is awake, not the legs.

But it's 7 am.

The legs need some extra rest after last night's musical fiasco.

Ohhhh yahhh my sister and I had a leg fight, didn't we?

Yeah. 

Yeah.

.... Oh no, here she comes, she's going to -

"SHRIYANDHAA!!! GET UP THIS INSTANT!! OR ELSE BE LATE TO SCHOOL, WHY EVER SHOULD I CARE??!!"

...

...

The whole world must be awake now after THAT, so it's best I get up.

Aww, but the legs are still sleeping!!

Doesn't matter, just shake them awake.

Aww.

Do it if you don't want that again.

On it.




Comments

  1. SHYAMALAJuly 11, 2025 at 10:05 PM

    Shriyannuuuuuu!!! What a lovely lovely piece of writing da kunju!!!!! You have beautifully portrayed the inner conflict between one part you wanting to sleep and the other part wanting to stay awake!!! I feel that happening too!!! And I love your clever idea of using different coloured fonts to indicate the three main characters of this narrative - you , the other you and the creator of both the you’s - Amma !!! 🤣🤣
    This genre of casual write ups comes naturally to you , and really attracts the readers!! Keep ‘em coming da pattu !🥰🥰🥰

    Loads of love ,
    Shyam Aunty

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  2. T.SrinivasanJuly 11, 2025 at 10:08 PM

    Beautiful battle between two minds at the. END who is the winner yes it's you Shriyandhaa who presented a reality with your Words ords Power. Your write up apply to all human. Keep going my wishes to you.
    From
    Pushpa patti

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